A diary entry that has all rights to b postd...ma first!

23rd nov 2007
A day i had been counting down since a month....a special day...a reason to smile...rejoice!
Yes its my 19th birthday im talkin of....n it needs no mention as to how excited i can be for my birthday!!
A night before....
im pacing back n forth with a book in ma hand....chemistry...(just to bring to your knowledge..studies n me dont really get along that well..)
My eyes all stuck onto the book....though not a word i understand...all that my mind is processing is that how do u manage 3 xamz in a day....(jz came bak home givin 2)...nt just any day bt ur birthday!!
Yes looking gud n gttin compliments can be some consolation...bt nt to the rescue....
So cant gt a hang of chem...y nt study M.P.(manufacturing process....needs special mention here....i had sores on ma hand working in the workshop where there should be a signboard of 'no mercy'....no btr than bonded slaves....)
Oh!! So is it already 12 ..ma eyes on the phone...in constant desperation f ma first birthday call....ring ring...the phone goes....(actually no....zrrrr zrrr ...its on vibration mode...lolz!!!)
Hmm...naah dont ask me the syllabus...n dont evn temme there is a viva tom...added to the 3 already xistin devilish xamz...WATEVA!!! I dont care ...
Oh...call ...call...call....its nt 12 yet bt i know im so popular...evry1 want to b the first to wish me...(lolz!!!....its ok to give urself airs...i survive on it!!!)
hmm....so its nt d prsn i xpectd to b the first...ma best frend....(dont know if i shud use it to refer to her aftr wat she has done to me....)
Bt newaz we r losing on the xitemnt...its the first caller..yayyyyyyy..n then it goes up till 2 ...1 call aftr another...msgs....blah blah blah...
N den its tym 4 sum swt dreamz....so gunite sweety....njoi!!

THE DAY....
Im up 5 in the morning....rememba i hav 3 xamz to gv...n a viva...
So time to dress up....'lookin gud....u aewz do'!!!
yaa a belt is wat i need...n i dont hav it....so lil cribbin bt its ok....jz cud hav been btr...
so ma best frend ..supposedly...hasnt calld yet...
I gt out f the house...in a rush...the xam starts 1 hr before the usual....
Screwd....donno a word...sent a msg to ma so calld bst frend...sayin i cudnt imagine she hasnt wishd me yet...Watels a dreamy prsn calls bak...n says that she evn diald ma no. at 12 bt then doesnt rememba if she talkd....lolz!!! n apologies.....
Been there done that....reach coll...gt to know we hav to submit d IC file in 2 days....havta start it 4m scratch...neva had classes...no clue watsoeva....
Compliments....n compliments....n wishes....
By d way still hav no clue wat to rite in the xam that follows....
So the xam starts....i havta switch off ma phone...i know ...Tragic ..."ON MA BDAY.....Y GOD Y...???"
The invigilator asks me if its ma bday...'strange ...hw does she know??'
Ya ok...its by the way i look.... :D
So yes 3 xamz...1 hr break aftr the first...attending calls...callin bak ppl who cald while i wz bizzy givin d xam...n studyin 4 the nxt ppr....
Half an hr brk aftr the 2nd....no gud agn...
End f 3rd sessionals.....PHEW!!!
PARTY TYM..........YAYYYYY!!!
Calld bak 1 f ma frends...only to find sum gal...(aur may b aunty...lolz....)answerin it...askin me all sortsa weird questions....( who?4m where...frnd?? or gf??)
to ma amzement she calld bak agn....(ok i gt im irristable...bt cmon....sounds crazy...if sum unknown prsn asks u "phone kyun rakh diya...??baat karo!"
Aftr havin a gud gr8 laugh at that.....got into a car....poor car...supporting 7 ppl....(wagonr...ma frends...our so calld permanent driver...no offence...lolz!!!)
Meanwhile ma frend calld to clearup...it wz his frend n no sis or mom...thankfully...pity if sum1 has such a poky family...haha...(oopz sowie!!)
Aftr a lot of confusion n a teeny weeny brawl....lolz!!!....C.P. is the place to b.....
Bt roads jammd....hw abt a compromise on Model town....naaah!!!...Bt can i hlp....huh!!
Newamind...Its ma bday n its supposd to b fun...so wat if i cundnt throw a party this yr...thanx to the 3rd sessionalz....huh!!
So a choc troufle cake is wat we bought..[not to 4gt the cutsie lovely transparent pink free knife w/ it.. :) ]...
so McD...wasthe only place we cud see....loadsa drama there.....first the cake....the happy bday song....blowing out candles....(ah so they werent magic candles...lolz!!)
My face wz smeard w/ cake....fine its ma bday bt i aint sparin ma frenz....so happy cake to them too....lolz!!!
The drama....grabbin evry1's attention....wz followd by..the treat...were 1 f ma frenz ordered a maharaja burger...hmm??
so all f us ate bt the maharaja burger....wz takin its own swt tym to be presentd...finally it did...ma gosh its huge...so thats deserves a special pic....ma frend biting into it....
n then the photo session...gosh there were so many mirrors....poor ppl....had to bear the embarrassmnt of me lookin into them n proclaimin that i love myself....haha....
Oh jz rememberd the pic w/ uncle donald neva happnd....aah....feel bad 4 it.... :(
Came out to see there wz an authentic chinese retuarant...huh...n McD...is where i had to celebrate ma bday....
Its late ...so off to ma masi's place....there awaits a party....hmm...funtym....
also i found ma best frnd changed her profile name to...happy bday shona....so fine !i appreciate d effort.....lolz!!!!

slept late...
Had no xamz or submissions the nxt day....bt can i eva gt to sleep....??....Its 4:30 in d mornin...Its GURUNANAK BDAY....Tym 4 Prabhat pheri.......

ITS FAKE

I lay crying

hoping for someone to wipe my tears

i sat dejected

hoping for someone to drown my fears

someone who holds my hand

and lifts me up

someone who stands beside me

when all doors seem shut

when you find sumone

who you truly believe

who has a say

in evrythin thats up your sleeve

the trust you have

which once you could never lay

you know he has come here to stay

u walk hand in hand

all things become petty

which once used to be grand

the tears freeze,all ur fears cease

its hard to realize bt its true

this person is INNER YOU!

EXPRESSION

If the day only knew

it had to make luv in moments few

the result wud be the most beautiful twilight

the sorrow of the deep black night

the birth of a new dawn

the cycle goes on

If I could only kno

why I feel so low

the fight between my heart and mind

the lonely road in sight

the crushed soul

the moments he stole

If i could only know

when a seed you sow

the promise a new flower would bloom

the faith that there will be no gloom

the fear if it could survive

the dilemma if the world would conspire

If i cud only know

wen no words he spoke

the feelings deep within

the thoughts that screend

the meaning he had to convey

the eyes that told a tale

If only you could hold on

for an EXPRESSION to be born

NEW BEGINNING

The fragrance of the flower

lying crushed between my hands

cruising on all highs

wrapped in a blanket of chill

aiming to touch the sky

wen 6 feet under i lie

the dreams that blossomed

admist the muffled air

a grip of a hand

im drowning all alone

the innocence of a new born child

wicked games im here to play

wen its all over

then why beg to reincarnte?

holding on to a painted smile

wen pieces of my heart i gather

searching for a ray of hope

darkness i refuse to let go

fearing to take a step

the past crashes through

a single tear kisses the cheeks

my hand outstreched in the rain of griefs

a symphony to dance to

wen the ground beneath i cant feel

blinded by the light

the truth shines bright

the insanity that prevails

makes you realise

its only the end that marks a

NEW BEGINNING